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2008-07-19 - 6:29 p.m.

Since I last wrote...

I guess the big news is I got my job permanently- I only found out yesterday, despite the interview being I think over a month ago. I suppose it was always likely that I'd get it- having been doing it in an acting capacity for close to 10 months now, but it's a relief to know. For the first couple of months I was happy that I was acting- getting the chance to prove myself before going through the interview process (had my boss recommended one of the other supervisors for the acting role it would have been a completely different story, and I don't think I would have been nearly as confident in the interview had I not gone into it knowing I'd already kind of made the job my own)- but pretty much for most of this year it's been a bit of a burden- the uncertainty of whether I'd be doing the job in x months time made it hard to focus. Plus at the beginning of the year I certainly thought the role would have been filled by July. Anyway, I don't know what else to say about it- I guess I'm proud of myself, but also nervous and doubting my abilities just a little.

It's been 3 weeks since I last wrote- it doesn't feel that long and it doesn't feel like I have that much to catch up on. I think I'll leave my generally mundane chronology of the last 3 weeks until my next entry. Just sitting here flicking through various blogs, Facebook pages and the like while I'm writing this, I would almost feel disrespectful writing about the trivialities of when I went for a run and how much I drank last night when I can see how much some of my friends, including several of the few people who read this, are hurting at the moment.

I feel terrible for Lucy, and I feel bad that I couldn't be there to at least take her mind off things last night when she was keen for just that. And sometimes I feel like it's only in these sort of forums that she really lets on how she's feeling so it's only in these sort of forums that I can give her the support I'd like to give her in person. And other friends making life changing decisions while having things falling down around them- well if you're reading this I just want you to know I'm thinking of you.

So I'll leave it at that for tonight- and definitely won't leave it as long until my next entry, what with 3 weeks to catch up on already.


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